Sky-Colored Droplets

Oh, hey, hi there

2007-06-28T19:19:39Z

Oh hey what's up livejournal. I might start using you again, maybe.

There's that.

hey look I'm home

2006-12-17T00:08:58Z

It is good to be home, actually. It's a lot better now than it was at Thanksgiving because I don't have a million assignments to worry about. Huzzah! Hung out in the city all of yesterday with my mom (whose face is almost completely better) and my dad and my gorgeous supermodel cousin, who I have nothing in common with except for a love of gross stories. My problem is my mom always speaks so higly of me to our family so I'm always super nervous when I'm around them that I won't live up to her praise, so then I don't say anything at all and probably seem super-boring. Oh wells.

On the car ride home dad told me all these stories about various fuck-ups people have committed in our family, and I've gotta say I feel pretty reassured. I can mess up pretty badly before I actually become "a disappointment." Excellent. It was sad though, and scary thinking about how hard it seems to be to actually be a decent person.

As of right now all I really want to do is graduate college with and English major and move to New Zeland and open a quiet little bookstore. My dad says there are a lot of towns with large Japanese populations, so I could settle there in a Japanese-style house (I LOVE the idea of a house set up where you have to take your shoes off. Feel like everything would be cleaner.) and open my bookstore and talk Japanese with people.

I've been feeling very unconfident as of late about my ability to actually maintain a relationship with someone. Like with friends it's easy, but with a "significant other" I feel like I clam up and have a really difficult time being honest for fear of seeming too attached. So I pick up this aloof demeaner and I dunno, feel like I lose some of my personality. I can't just act natural. Then again, meh, I don't know.

Seems kinda gay to be reporting all this to livejournal, but they're thoughts I've been having and I wanted to get 'em out there. Whatevs.

Reach out and touch someone with your steel penis

2006-10-29T17:14:10Z

My room is like a giant wind tunnel, only none of the windows are open. It's scary! And kind of obnoxious. I stuffed a towel next to the crack at the bottom of the door to try and combat the effect, but it didn't work and now people think I've been smoking pot. Woo!

Whore.

2006-09-29T05:13:44Z

You guys I think I have tourettes or something. I just keep saying whore. Like for no reason at all. It just pops out all the time. Maybe I'm just a very angry person. It's so weird though.

Whore.

In other news, how are you guys doing?

blrgh

2006-09-19T04:39:12Z

So randomly, while lying in bed waiting to fall asleep, I remembered my bulldog Marshmellow drowning like, 7 years ago. And I thought about how awful it would be to be sinking underwater or lying at the bottom wondering "won't anybody come and help me?" and no one showing up even though they're right above you and you know they know you're down there. Drowing would be so awful. Oh god. So yeah, I started sobbing and had to leave the room 'cause I didn't want to disturb my roommates and I went down the hall to try and find someplace alone and I ran into Tinuke (my RA) who saw I was crying and brought me into her room and gave me tissues and tried to cheer me up. And it worked mostly but I still feel absolutely horrible. I know I was too young and tiny to jump in and save her at the time, but still... how awful. I feel like the most horrible person alive.

I hate running on no sleep. I get so emotional.

mmmm

2006-08-21T06:30:47Z

So, after seeing Edward Norton in American History X, I have decided...

There should be more male nudity in movies.

A fantastically creepy song

2006-08-14T23:54:36Z

It feels retarded
I want you to like me
Will you be there tonight?
Do you mean it when you say what you say?
Fixing up my hair
I want to impress you
Today and every day, okay?
Okay, okay okay

Somebody you'd want

I want to be careless to
So much waiting
So much sitting alone
When you say what you say
It's not what I thought
It's really nothing at all
I'm not who you want, all right
All right, all right all right

Bunny Gamer stand up
Bunny Gamer
Where have you been all of my life?
Bunny Gamer take me with you, okay?
Okay, okay okay
Bunny Gamer sit down
Bunny Gamer
Where have you been all night?
Bunny gamer leave me alone, all right?
All right, all right all right
This song and "Brian the Vampire" (even creepier than this one) are the only Xiu Xiu songs I've listened to so far, but I really like 'em a lot.

In other news, I am going away forever a week from Thursday. Weeeeeeeird.

Also, today was my sister's birthday.

Emily really wasn't that enthusiastic about a lot of her birthday

How could you not be excited about all this junk??

Emily's friends sure were!

I like Kim

Mom hates when I take her picture

Emily was damned excited about new volleyball clothes?

And unsure about her tye-dye volleyball

"Why would you buy me a white sweater?! How long do you honestly think it's going to stay white?"

She liked the card I got her

I love that my mom got her Ms. Spider decorations

I got glow-in-the-dark stuff!

All in all, a pretty good day

eeeee!

2006-08-14T05:53:52Z

Dude I'm up in the fuckin' clouds! Helping fucking sky gnomes or some shit. MINISH CAP IS THE BEST HANDHELD ZELDA GAME EVER!!!! I am in love.

bluepaint2787 @ 2006-08-08T22:30:00

2006-08-09T02:33:38Z

*ahem*

I am in love with this man. He is the author of this comic (read the earlier ones, particularly "the christmas disaster special" and "another day") and is also, as you can see, incredibly attractve (that's the only picture of him on teh internet, hence me linking to his resume). Good heavens! *le sigh*

sigh

2006-08-08T04:10:12Z

My new roommate loathes Coheed and Cambria. This is going to be a difficult year.

good-ish day

2006-08-08T02:58:14Z

Today mom felt like crabs, so we drove to Baltimore! Steph came along, and I must say she is the best driving companion ever. We played all sorts of card games and word games and we talked about Harry Potter and she feigned interest at my completed Pokedex and it was awesome. I'm still so full of crab and ice cream that I think I'll burst, but it was lovely.

I took a ton of pictures actually, I'll put 'em up tomorrow. I look especially retarded in them! Yay!

sigh

2006-07-31T05:18:19Z

Why can't anything just work? (You all probably think you know what I'm talking about, but you don't.)

Yeah, my bad mood finally caught up with me. I should just go to bed and ignore it, but instead I'm eating pizza and listening to sad music and indulging it. This is a bad idea. You're only a teenager once, though.

*sigh*

heeeey an update!

2006-07-30T13:35:44Z

Hey livejournal! What's up?

I don't know what's possessed me to update this beast after neglecting it for so long, but here I am. Actually it's probably because I'm bored senseless. I've been up since 8! I hate waking up early- it's so lonely. The good thing is I was up till like 3:30, so odds are I'll nap a lot and be unaware of how bored I am.

You know how you can feel when a bad mood is coming on? Or maybe it's just me, I don't know, but I've been putting one off for a couple of days now and napping is pretty much the best way ever. 'Cause, you know, you don't know wtf when you're unconscious, and when you wake up you've got a good half hour at least of not remembering why you should be in a bad mood. It's great!

This is pretty much the crappiest entry ever. I'm sorry, livejournal.

For anyone that doesn't already have it, you should go out and get Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV (the newest of the Coheed and Cambria CDs). I got it back in the fall on the day it came out, and I haven't stopped listening to it still. It's so good! Eep. Also I am excited for Alexisonfire that LILY GOT EARLY AND I AM JEALOUS. Lucky b-word.

Have I said any naughty words yet in this entry? I don't think I have. Woo!

And, since everyone hates text-only entries, I leave you this picture of my beloved pasta.

bluepaint2787 @ 2006-05-13T00:08:00

2006-05-13T04:09:05Z

wheeee

2006-05-10T13:32:13Z

Who slept last night? Why, Rachel did!!!

Sweeeeeeeeet.

(I am so happy about this.)

who knew?

2006-05-09T04:30:30Z

I have lost the ability to sleep.

Rawr.

I can feel my mind wasting awaaaayyyy

1:36 AM
still awake.

3:23 AM
still awake.

AHHHHHH!

2006-03-18T17:13:12Z

OMG YOU GUYS I GOT INTO COLLEGE!!!!

Syracuse accepted me!!! I am not going to be a homeless person!!! Huzzah!

No they are not my top choice but my safety school rejected me yesterday and I was all depressed and "wah I'm gonna fail at life" but I'm NOT because other schools like me huzzah! Maybe I will get MORE acceptance letters and then I will get to make a CHOICE!

YAY!!!

oh life...

2006-03-07T22:04:45Z

aw you cannot read it. Stupid...something
http://www.boltcity.com/copper/copper_030_goodlife.htm

mmm sweet potato casserole...

2005-11-25T00:35:00Z

So, I got my hair cut. Finally.
For comparison:

homecoming, at it's longest (yes I look like I am high. Stfu. Mom had spent like 20 mins trying to figure the camera out, we were tired of posing...)

picture for a painting of myself I was gonna do

now:

right after getting cut, in all it's well-styled salon-y goodness

upon waking up today. Am I not a creature of beauty in the morning?

after a shower, all neat and fluffy (LOOK I AM COOKING STUFF!)

I made sweet potato casserole. It was delicious.

Hooray for thanksgiving!!

Ohh also it snowed today!!! I kid you not. It snowed on thanksgiving.

hrumph

2005-11-22T04:42:55Z

Know what I hate? Orange juice. It is most definitely NOT my beverage of choice. Not by a long shot.

What is my beverage of choice? Milk. We're our of milk. Stupid orange juice, thinks it can replace milk. Well you can't orange juice. You can't.

Hi Guys!

2005-11-18T01:18:22Z

Discussion: Why are breasts so great, anyway?

Go!

bluepaint2787 @ 2005-10-23T15:46:00

2005-10-23T19:47:15Z

ahahaha, Livejournal's making fun of my password choices. Hah.

Logging in to server... Also, the server has a message for you:

Your password is too easy to guess. It's recommended that you change it, otherwise you risk having your journal hijacked. Visit http://www.livejournal.com/changepassword.bml to change your password.

bluepaint2787 @ 2005-10-13T23:10:00

2005-10-14T03:11:45Z

la·zy
adj. la·zi·er, la·zi·est
1. Resistant to work or exertion; disposed to idleness.
2. Slow-moving; sluggish: a lazy river.
3. Conducive to idleness or indolence: a lazy summer day.

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[Probably of Low German origin.]
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lazi·ly adv.
lazi·ness n.
Synonyms: lazy, fainéant, idle, indolent, slothful, Rachel Ehrlich
These adjectives mean not disposed to exertion, work, or activity: too lazy to wash the dishes; fainéant aristocrats; an idle drifter; an indolent hanger-on; slothful employees.

ohh The American Pageant, you fiend

2005-10-05T23:41:05Z

So I'm reading my history book, and I come across this beauty:

Oh, dewy was the morning
Upon the first of May,
And Dewey was the Admiral,
Down in Manila Bay.
And dewy were the Spaniards' eyes,
Them orbs of black and blue;
And dew we feel discouraged?
I dew not think we dew!

I nearly fell out of my chair I was laughing so hard. God, I love this textbook.

hrm

2005-10-02T20:03:36Z

The weekend's over already.
How sad.

Serenity is amazing and everyone should see it.

College is scaring me. *le sigh*

ho-hum